“[He]
cried out... with tears, Lord, I believe; help thou mine unbelief”
It is not unusual in scripture for two opposing entities to
reside in the same dwelling. In fact, it is the norm. For example, “I find then a law, that, when I would do
good, evil is present with me.” After
all, how would one know they had real
peace if turmoil were not present? Or be victorious, without a battle?
Half of this heartbroken man believed Jesus could answer his prayer, while the other
half questioned, would He answer his
prayer. He needed Christ’s help to bring the one half into agreement with the
better half. So he prays earnestly that Jesus will enable him in that part that
is lacking. He was honest to admit imperfections in his faith.
This brief prayer is for all of us who are almost, but not
altogether. I think our dear Lord purposely leaves this void in our faith that
we may realize our great need for Him, even in our faith. You know, “Without ME ye can do nothing.” And that
includes believing.
Know for a certainty, our Savior understands the faith and
fear part of our lives (Heb.5:7). C.S. Lewis explains it best, I think. “One
can believe in anesthetics and yet feel in a panic when they actually put the
mask over your face.”